Reality

With me reading ' blogs about everyday reality', Im hoping my resurfacing struggle with the D/s lifestyle will cease to exist! Perhaps it comes from me wanting someone else to take over the reigns - Ive never been married but have dated more than my 2 sisters and they are both married! Frankly in all candor, Im just too darn 'picky' and all those worthwhile men who would have made a wonderful 'soul mate' are either married and / or sprouting up daisies, lol and / or living in some far off exotic country!

Thanks to all those who have become a follower to my blog, A curious spectator, because Ive found some new and interesting ones to follow by clicking on what you read!

Discourse

It is important to comprehend that it is the honesty & quality of discourse which is of essential value!
So I wonder what gives a chatterer who holds the bolt, the gall to suspend someone from chatting in a so designated Adult chatroom just because they do not like their comments???

The same thing can be said about blogging! Because I leave a comment on some blogs which frankly in all candor are so ridiculous. the owners have slandered me????

So therefore to all my enemies on blogland, you know whom you are, as you slide down the banister of life may the splinters always point in the wrong direction!!!! An old Irish saying!

Bloggers & dirty linen

In reading a new friend's blog this afternoon, I came across a comment he made & immediately an idea for a post came to mind! Why is it that "bloggers" air their "dirty laundry" for all to see? Ive done just that and could it be, because we all are just a bit opinionated or is it that we just want to be outlandish or we just want pity! So I did an ixquick last evening, a new search engine that does not publish one's IP address like google does, and it suggested that "opinionated people" have "big mouths" - laughing out loud!
Feel free to comment all, even my enemies here on blogland!!

Hot Temperatures in the Northeast have finally arrived

Hopefully, this week is the last of the "hot temps"! My ideal weather is cool evening / cool mornings with temperatures in the 70's with low humidity - something like SanDiego,California - what a wonderful place to visit! Now if you want contrast of temperatures drive to Monterey and or SanFrancisco California where thankgod I had my raincoat to keep me warm - because only one day did the temperature rise to 73!
Back in the 70's I took with me a girl friend from work & we visited a youngman I met in Williamsburg, VA summer of 1969! Tim worked during his college breaks as a "cooper" - lol, what a flirt he was all 6 ft inch 11 inches tall. Besides this Irishman i felt little - me being 6ft tall eyes of blue with the 100% Irish temper!
How different he had become - he was now a 2nd Lt training others at Fort Ord - now a defunct military base.
He was mean and he enjoyed when recruits were overcome with nauseous feelings after going through training of being able to withstand toxic chemicals! How had this fun loving Irishman with the twinkly eyes gone astray!
Ive enjoyed the summer we've had, though all the rain could have stayed away! Not once until yesterday, Sunday the 16th of August have I had on my air conditioning! And so it is becoming warm in the room where my computer is situated and time to close the wide open window!

Cult's & why are they allowed to flourish

As my blogger profile depicts, Im inquisitive which has come from working in the Customer Service field!
If one does not ask questions, they cannot do a good job plus too from asking alot of questions, one can have opinons! In my 8 posts commencing July 31st 2009, I talked about my curious interest in the Dominant / Submissive lifestyle that is why I entitled my blog the "A curious spectator"! Perhaps D/s can fulfill the purpose to increase the level of excitement in the boring world of "vanilla sex", but the "dark images" depicted in "Bondage / Discipline" to me does not have the potential to make my dreams come true nor does it fulfill the purpose to increase the level of my excitement nor would it ever build my self-esteem as suggested by 3 way over the hill submissives! In all reality, it is an "unethical alternative lifestyle"!

Because we live in a "free society", Bondage / Discipline is considered an alternative lifestyle aka Cult!
Children are subjected to this alternative lifestyle, if their parents embrace this lifestyle! Also words / ideas / pictures are more powerful than perhaps anyone suspects, and once deeply engraved in a child's mind, they are not easily eradicated! In all candor, I would certaintly not want anyone who teaches my child to be associated with this alternative lifestyle!

Closeted shrinks such as Selkie and Littleone

Laughing out Loud to the closeted shrinks known as Selkie / Littleone!
Although no comments are left on my blog, A curious spectator, my posts are still read!
I didn't comment to what Selkie wrote on the Journey 8/10/09 because frankly her statements were just too winded! Granted I know nothing of the dynamics of the lifestyle other than what Ive read not just online but in published books on the subject, but Im entitled to have an opinion. Last time I looked at our Constitution, America is a "free society"!
And for me being involved in 'SEX GAMES', hardly. Now you want details on that repugnant topic, visit the blog of Littleone's The Journey where she and her silly Master known as Sir live a 24/7 M/s lifestyle! She's nothing but a gray haired bbw hag who frankly is a MENTAL CASE!!

My final post on the subject of BDSM

This morning around 9:45am after chatting with friends, I ventured into the world of blogging! I have 2 blogs saved on the subject of BDSM. A Kind Dom and Master's Viewpoint [Dennis Nagee - slave owner]. Ive read countless stories by dominants and submissives with lots of contradictions but The Journey is one blog that should be viewed as 'psychologically damaging'!
Littleone is the main character living the 24/7 bdsm lifestyle and so this morning described what happened the 2nd day of BDSM camp. I wonder what would happen if the tables were turned and her Master known as 'Sir' was beaten with such passion on a very sore ass that has a bump in it. Repeatedly he wanted her to drop her drawers and be subject to tortureous beatings because he wanted to try out new toys???? She repeatedly has discussed in her blog how she's 'masochistic' and they make beautiful music between them but in all reality isn't this just 'abusive behavior'!!!

An eight year inquisitive interest with D/s

For the past 8 years, Ive had an on again / off again "inquisitive interest" about the D/s lifestyle! When Ive read BDSMers blogs and viewed the pictures of their private parts
being contorted into many shapes via "pins/piercings", Ive come to the conclusion that they had to have been abused as children and/or as adults to have accepted this type of "safe, sane, consensual" punishment! And when they discuss the "dark side" can it be they are depressed due to the guilt of their aberrant sexual practices? Even us "vanilla people" get depressed but mainly due to the guilt, as a Christian, I lust married men! December 2007 I met such a person online and In January 2008 met him offline. I thought that by doing such I would for ever get over the attraction I felt for married men. Our "petting" with clothes on led to me giving him a "bj" with clothes off. When he didn't get what he wanted, he made up some story and left. Once I returned home, I went into a 3 month "guilt ridden" depression! LoL, Ive not learned from my experience because on Sunday, August 3, 2008 I allowed into my Instant Message chat a legally separated man but still in the eyes of God married! Am I attracted to him, yes still! And I know he would be the perfect person who could bring out my "submissive tendencies" as He's the most caring of all Dominants if I ever decided to lean the way of D/s!

BDSMers who like to flaunt their kink

My comment to Anonymous and all other BDSMers who feel they have the right to chastise me for voicing an opinion on what I dislike about BDSM, it's Abuse/Torture! Perhaps if your kind would keep their kink behind closed doors instead of shouting to the world with pictures - the carving of one's flesh in a figure 8 us Vanilla people / Psychologists would not judge you so harshly!!

Ive become famous - thanks morningstar

This morning on morningstar's blog alias littleone's the Journey she dedicated her August 7, 2009 post about BDSM versus Abuse to me! There was a comment that jumped out at me about self-esteem - that s/m build self-esteem - yeah right, NOT!
I have a chatfriend [Mentor] who not only has dabbled in Hedonism but also D/s and who like littleone has many degrees hanging up on his wall; he counsels abused men and women. I broached the subject of what she wrote about and this was his comment. Well, Christina you certaintly have a penchant for finding 'crazies' on the Internet! I told him about my blog and that I had been chastised by littleone for having an opinion on what I thought was Abuse - the carving of the figure 8 by a sadistic Master onto his sub's buttocks! His comment - well it sounds as though the multilatee and the multilator aren't working with a full deck of cards. Case closed!!!!!

Judgmental is one of my faults!

Nothing like being chatised for having an opinion! Im sorry if my remarks littleone upset you when I left a comment on your blog Sunday the 2nd of August 2009. Having the figure 8 carved by a knife is not my idea of what pleasure is all about! But as you commented on my blog of Monday 3rd of August 2009 you are a masochist and your Master a sadist! To each their own and Im not weak of heart. I was just agreeing with, what many of your submissive cohorts have said in their individual blogs about what is Abuse. I shall look forward to reading your blog to be posted Friday August 7 on the subject BDSM vs Abuse to see if what Ive read in many of the purchased Books such as The Loving Dominant / Erotic Surrender - The sensual joys of female submission agree with your interpretation!

Continuation on how I became the curious spectator

Ive also been reading the blogs of Dominants/Submissives such as: A Kind Dom & his followup Uncle Agony; In between black and white; daughter of the sea and oatmealgirl. There is much in what selkie laments that Ive felt about this very 'taboo lifestyle'. Then this morning 8/2/09 I read some of oatmealgirl's posts from July. The idea that a submissive would allow her sadistic Master flog her labia and/or bite it all in the feelings of pleasure is what I do not understand. The submissive is living, breathing at his 'pleasure' - where's the 'self-esteem' and/or 'dignity' of this 60 year old woman?. Im 60 years young too but Id never, ever allow any Man to treat me in the fashion her SadisticMaster does, even if we were just doing a D/s scene. How can one feel this treatment is personal growth? Too me this is Abuse! As Tristan, another Dominant whose blogs Ive read, and who commented to one of my comments to A Kind Dom's blog entitled "The insecurities of a Dom" said; I could be just a bit too Assertive to ever consider being called Submissive! I guess that is why from March of 2003 until January 2006 I walked away from even considering the D/s lifestyle. To be continued on 8/3/09.

How I became the curious spectator

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