We say goodbye to the season of Autumn at 12:47pm December 21, 2009 and the Winter Soltice officially ushers in the Winter season! It starts as the sun reaches its southernmost point - in essence the shortest day of the year & yet the longest night of the year!!
I will be spending the Christmas holiday alone again this year with the hope of visiting my sisters the week of December 28 including the New Year celebrations providing the weather is good!! My town didnt get the massive snowstorm that engulfed the east coast areas this past saturday into sunday snarling traffic ectera, but just a dusting of 2 inches - however, a wintry mix is promised for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day!!!
To those whom have stopped by to visit A Curious Spectator since its inception July 31st 2009, may the blessings and joy of this Christmas season be with you throughout the coming year!!!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Watching snow fall in Pennsylvania 12 / 05/ 09
On Saturday 9:50am in North Central Pennsylvania, Im closer to the NY state border, the snow began to fall lightly! The trees / my deck / my car / driveway / grass all covered. The weather person forecasts only a light snow but if it continues all day into nighttime hours we could get the 3 - 6 inches that places south of me - such as Allentown/Philadelphia are suppose to get!!
I remember as a kid when we lived in an area known as Glenside, Pa when a giant of a snowstorm caused our electricity to cease & all we had to heat the house was the fireplace in the living room where my older sister by 5 yrs. / my Mother & my baby sister who was born January 1, 1957 [she made the front page of the Philadelphia Inquirer being named the first baby of Montgomery County at 12:28am] camped out for 5 days having to depend on a neighbor across the street who had Gas to heat and cook by! My Father was stranded in this little town in North Central Pennylvania where he was working & where we eventually moved to in August of 1958!
Anyway, memories of sledding / building snow caves & snowmen with scarves & hats & carrots & finally making angels in the snow by moving arms & legs in an upward motion not to forget the hot cocca with marshmallows has warmed this person's heart as I sit here in my 'little corner' of the Internet world composing a Post to my blog & watching the fine snow come down!
I had wanted to go out & shop for a Nativity Scene as the purpose of Christmas to me is to celebrate our Lord's birth. Last Sunday a Friend accompanied me to a country gift shop nestled in the woods, thank god temperatures that day were in the 60's & the bulk of the gifts were made in China - even Lennox China once manufactured in the United States of America has succumed to being nothing more than 'crapola'!
A stock journalist on Fox News weekend mentioned how Sally Struthers [well known for being the screaming adult child on RIP Carroll O'Connor's hit show, having a senior moment, lol, & cannot recall the name] suggested long ago that China be given a chance to become a great country & thus they've taken our place, in fact even 'OWN US'!! Sooner or later, China will cease to lend our country monies to get back on track!!!!!
I remember as a kid when we lived in an area known as Glenside, Pa when a giant of a snowstorm caused our electricity to cease & all we had to heat the house was the fireplace in the living room where my older sister by 5 yrs. / my Mother & my baby sister who was born January 1, 1957 [she made the front page of the Philadelphia Inquirer being named the first baby of Montgomery County at 12:28am] camped out for 5 days having to depend on a neighbor across the street who had Gas to heat and cook by! My Father was stranded in this little town in North Central Pennylvania where he was working & where we eventually moved to in August of 1958!
Anyway, memories of sledding / building snow caves & snowmen with scarves & hats & carrots & finally making angels in the snow by moving arms & legs in an upward motion not to forget the hot cocca with marshmallows has warmed this person's heart as I sit here in my 'little corner' of the Internet world composing a Post to my blog & watching the fine snow come down!
I had wanted to go out & shop for a Nativity Scene as the purpose of Christmas to me is to celebrate our Lord's birth. Last Sunday a Friend accompanied me to a country gift shop nestled in the woods, thank god temperatures that day were in the 60's & the bulk of the gifts were made in China - even Lennox China once manufactured in the United States of America has succumed to being nothing more than 'crapola'!
A stock journalist on Fox News weekend mentioned how Sally Struthers [well known for being the screaming adult child on RIP Carroll O'Connor's hit show, having a senior moment, lol, & cannot recall the name] suggested long ago that China be given a chance to become a great country & thus they've taken our place, in fact even 'OWN US'!! Sooner or later, China will cease to lend our country monies to get back on track!!!!!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Happy Thanksgiving to all!!
Today I was suppose to drive to Phoenixville in Pennsylvania [for those whom do not know where this town is, 40 minutes from King of Prussia] and celebrate the day with my younger sister & her family! But weather has played a factor - zero visibility at Mt. Pocono, the area where I access Interstate 476 South toward Philadelphia!
Ive spent 6 Thanksgivings & 5 Christmases alone & here's hoping that this Christmas 2009 I will be invited to spend the day with my younger sister! It's just another day to get through& thankgod there are parades & football games to watch & then the Internet to connect with friends either by blogging or chatting!
So now after cleaning out fridge thinking Id be away for 5 days, I have to grocery shop for something to wet my palate! Enjoy your day all to those whom celebrate this wonderful day when we thank our Lord for all his blessings!!!!!
Ive spent 6 Thanksgivings & 5 Christmases alone & here's hoping that this Christmas 2009 I will be invited to spend the day with my younger sister! It's just another day to get through& thankgod there are parades & football games to watch & then the Internet to connect with friends either by blogging or chatting!
So now after cleaning out fridge thinking Id be away for 5 days, I have to grocery shop for something to wet my palate! Enjoy your day all to those whom celebrate this wonderful day when we thank our Lord for all his blessings!!!!!
Monday, November 23, 2009
So many Conspiracies
Today is 46 years since President John F. Kennedy was assassinated! Last night trying to sleep but being awakened by the radio - Coast To Coast AM 1:00am til 5:00am talk radio show - the guests interviewed suggested that JFK's hit was planned by the Government at the approval of VP Lyndon Baines Johnson & gay blade F.B.I. Director J. Edgar Hoover! Then it was also mentioned that District Attorney of New Orleans William Garrison was assassinated too because he's the one whom opened 'the can of worms' that JFK's hit was iniated by the C.I.A. & not committed by Lee Harvey Oswald!
I remember being glued to the television set and seeing Jack Rubey shoot at close range Lee Harvey Oswald, the perp that the Govt. blamed and then watching all the heart wrenching proceedings of the Funeral Mass ectera! Grief is a terrible thing to get through and so today, I wonder how Caroline Kennedy S. who was five at the time of her Father's untimely death is
dealing? Will the 'state run media' showcast what happened 46 yrs ago!
So many 'death bed' confessions have been made over the years but isn't it time for all 'good men' to come clean?
I remember being glued to the television set and seeing Jack Rubey shoot at close range Lee Harvey Oswald, the perp that the Govt. blamed and then watching all the heart wrenching proceedings of the Funeral Mass ectera! Grief is a terrible thing to get through and so today, I wonder how Caroline Kennedy S. who was five at the time of her Father's untimely death is
dealing? Will the 'state run media' showcast what happened 46 yrs ago!
So many 'death bed' confessions have been made over the years but isn't it time for all 'good men' to come clean?
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Being Vindictative
Why do women bash each other - is it because they are jealous or is there another reason?
The other reason: On Monday of this week the 16th of November 2009 I happened to be watching the dynamics in a Pennsylvania chatroom, when a friend came into the room - I will call her Marie! Immediately another chatterer opens up the topic of conversation with - I hope Mabus does not bolt me for the following but I must tell everyone what is bothering me. Mabus was just an ordinary chatter who was holding the bolt - meaning if 'unsavory' people came into the room, he had the option of leaving them in or kicking them out! To continue: I will call the chatter by her real name Melanie [a floozy who cheats behind her husband, has 2 young children and was just recently cleared of bribery, etc charges] Citygal [the screen name I use to chat] and Chippygal37 [Marie] it has come to my attention that you 2 have slandered me - a chatter friend has sent me the chatroom logs. First of all, when Melanie was arrested I was not online - hadn't been for 2 months!. I had received in an email the newspaper account of why she was arrested and why her bail was set at $125,000.00. Frankly, not knowing this woman but we did occassionally chat in the room and in Instant Messages and we more or less live close by I was shocked! I do remember saying to the room that only Melanie knows the truth of what happened and I feel sorry for her children.
What Marie may have said, Im not privy to that conversation but for Melanie to accuse me in the forum of an open chatroom instead of taking it to an Email is an Injustice!.. Not only has she not shut up about what she considers as 'slander' but she keeps bringing it up usually when both Marie and me are not in the chatroom.. Case in point last night, Wednesday the 18th of Nov. 2009 after 11:00pm, she immediately started in with the bashing! How do we know, a chatterer by the name of Barbie informed us that our mutual friend was talking about us again! As I sit here at my computer composing this post, I wonder why does she do it - is she so insecure at 44? Or does she resent us for being 'stand up women' who do the right thing - whom do not inpune their character - because without Integrity - one is up the creek!!
The other reason: On Monday of this week the 16th of November 2009 I happened to be watching the dynamics in a Pennsylvania chatroom, when a friend came into the room - I will call her Marie! Immediately another chatterer opens up the topic of conversation with - I hope Mabus does not bolt me for the following but I must tell everyone what is bothering me. Mabus was just an ordinary chatter who was holding the bolt - meaning if 'unsavory' people came into the room, he had the option of leaving them in or kicking them out! To continue: I will call the chatter by her real name Melanie [a floozy who cheats behind her husband, has 2 young children and was just recently cleared of bribery, etc charges] Citygal [the screen name I use to chat] and Chippygal37 [Marie] it has come to my attention that you 2 have slandered me - a chatter friend has sent me the chatroom logs. First of all, when Melanie was arrested I was not online - hadn't been for 2 months!. I had received in an email the newspaper account of why she was arrested and why her bail was set at $125,000.00. Frankly, not knowing this woman but we did occassionally chat in the room and in Instant Messages and we more or less live close by I was shocked! I do remember saying to the room that only Melanie knows the truth of what happened and I feel sorry for her children.
What Marie may have said, Im not privy to that conversation but for Melanie to accuse me in the forum of an open chatroom instead of taking it to an Email is an Injustice!.. Not only has she not shut up about what she considers as 'slander' but she keeps bringing it up usually when both Marie and me are not in the chatroom.. Case in point last night, Wednesday the 18th of Nov. 2009 after 11:00pm, she immediately started in with the bashing! How do we know, a chatterer by the name of Barbie informed us that our mutual friend was talking about us again! As I sit here at my computer composing this post, I wonder why does she do it - is she so insecure at 44? Or does she resent us for being 'stand up women' who do the right thing - whom do not inpune their character - because without Integrity - one is up the creek!!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
The Promise of a New Day!
During the 1990's I purchased a book of daily meditations - part of the Hazelden Meditations Series written by 2 authors and an illustrator! Originally the book was developed for perople recovering from alcoholism and other addictions! I bought the book because I was interested in personal and/or spiritual growth!
It takes strength to step enthusiastically into each day of our lives! This strength comes more readily on some days than on others, but every day makes demands on us! For each day in the year there is a quote by an esteemed person such as Amelia Earhart! For today, November 14th she states: In soloing --- as in other activities --- it is far easier to start something than it is to finish it! And then the 2 authors Karen Casey & Martha Vanceburg and the illustrator David Spohn give their thoughts: Our inspiration to master any art, to attain any goal, to tackle any project comes from within the center of all knowledge! When the desire to pursue a particular avenue keeps presenting itself, we should pay heed, trusting we will be shown the way to succeed. Each time we back off, letting our commitment die, we are opting for less than a full life! No one else can a handle a project in just our way! And so today I will be faced with the choice to stay on top of my goals! I must remember the source of my inspiration and trust it!
When Im feeling down in the dumps which for most of 2009 has been every 2 months or so [2 months good & the next 2 months bad], I pick up this book & daily read the meditation & if Ive missed a day or 2 or 3, I read those too! And I come out feeling much better for the day and to realize that Ive got it better than most!
It takes strength to step enthusiastically into each day of our lives! This strength comes more readily on some days than on others, but every day makes demands on us! For each day in the year there is a quote by an esteemed person such as Amelia Earhart! For today, November 14th she states: In soloing --- as in other activities --- it is far easier to start something than it is to finish it! And then the 2 authors Karen Casey & Martha Vanceburg and the illustrator David Spohn give their thoughts: Our inspiration to master any art, to attain any goal, to tackle any project comes from within the center of all knowledge! When the desire to pursue a particular avenue keeps presenting itself, we should pay heed, trusting we will be shown the way to succeed. Each time we back off, letting our commitment die, we are opting for less than a full life! No one else can a handle a project in just our way! And so today I will be faced with the choice to stay on top of my goals! I must remember the source of my inspiration and trust it!
When Im feeling down in the dumps which for most of 2009 has been every 2 months or so [2 months good & the next 2 months bad], I pick up this book & daily read the meditation & if Ive missed a day or 2 or 3, I read those too! And I come out feeling much better for the day and to realize that Ive got it better than most!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Caring for a loved one with Alzheimer's
An AOL news article this morning 11/10/09 caught my eye about a man by the name of Bobby Yurkanim located in Fort Lauderdale, Florida whom is out on bond but awaiting his trial scheduled for January 2010 for allegedly killing his Father in 2005 whom suffered from this dreaded disease!
My Father too suffered from Alzheimer's for about 10 years although my Mother, his caregiver, saw signs way before his 65th birthday when he suffered a mini stroke! My father suffered what at first was called dementia and then full blown alzheimers! From being a very 'intelligent' man but reduced to someone whom no longer could dress himself / nor feed himself it was stressful yes, but Id never think of getting rid of my Father because my life was disrupted! There are many a day and/or night now where I don't feel sad as too how I would feel when my Father [whom has been dead 17 & 1/2 yrs] would walk up to 'strangers' and put out his hand and say hello. So many times I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me and was surprised one time when indeed the person my Father was greeting was a former employee!
Eventually my Mother had to put my Father into a nursing facility because he became too hard to care for; he began to be abusive and one time threw lotion into my face. But every day my Mother would visit my Father for lunch and then have him walk for exercise [because for protection he was put into a wheelchair] and then would help the aides put him to bed for his nap! Every evening if we could one or both of us would go to feed him his dinner, to give him some exercise by walking the halls and then together we got him bathed and ready for bed! Sometimes a Nurses aid would help us but they were so short staffed. We did this for almost 2 & 1/2 years. My Mother grieved for my Father after his death for 5 years and then she became sick and died 10 yrs later! I would not like to see any of my siblings and/or friends get this dreaded disease!
My Father too suffered from Alzheimer's for about 10 years although my Mother, his caregiver, saw signs way before his 65th birthday when he suffered a mini stroke! My father suffered what at first was called dementia and then full blown alzheimers! From being a very 'intelligent' man but reduced to someone whom no longer could dress himself / nor feed himself it was stressful yes, but Id never think of getting rid of my Father because my life was disrupted! There are many a day and/or night now where I don't feel sad as too how I would feel when my Father [whom has been dead 17 & 1/2 yrs] would walk up to 'strangers' and put out his hand and say hello. So many times I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me and was surprised one time when indeed the person my Father was greeting was a former employee!
Eventually my Mother had to put my Father into a nursing facility because he became too hard to care for; he began to be abusive and one time threw lotion into my face. But every day my Mother would visit my Father for lunch and then have him walk for exercise [because for protection he was put into a wheelchair] and then would help the aides put him to bed for his nap! Every evening if we could one or both of us would go to feed him his dinner, to give him some exercise by walking the halls and then together we got him bathed and ready for bed! Sometimes a Nurses aid would help us but they were so short staffed. We did this for almost 2 & 1/2 years. My Mother grieved for my Father after his death for 5 years and then she became sick and died 10 yrs later! I would not like to see any of my siblings and/or friends get this dreaded disease!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Creating a Masterpiece
Every September [9/21] when the Season of Autumn commences, I wish I could take crayons to pad and create a colorful drawing! But instead Ive gotten out my camera and taken some wonderful pictures; Im surrounded by Oak trees and this year they've taken longer to change from green to the vibrant reds / golden yellows / golden orange and then turn nondescript brown when they die and fall from the trees. Ive been living in my house for 23 years in a small town in central pennsylvania but I think this has been the best year for foliage. I was surprised in 2006 when I created my screen name luvAutumn etc to learn that the season of Autumn lasts under December [12/21] the Winter Soltice! Flowers are also an important aspect of Autumn such as mums, mini calla lilies, marigolds and hydrangeas. A Hydrangea is the most popular of the fall wedding flowers; also Roses which symbolizes 'love'!
Monday, November 2, 2009
Double Standard
This morning listening to the radio I heard about the Home Depot employee being FIRED because he wore a pin that read 'In God we Trust' yet this evening an AOL news article depicts the apology from a Texas Medical Center to the Muslim lady doctor whom is practicing in my country 'America' for saying she was banned from wearing a head scarf!
My take on this: Because we have a Muslim Son of Kenya President in the WhiteHouse, Muslim ethnicities are getting a free pass! Quite an injustice I say!!!
My take on this: Because we have a Muslim Son of Kenya President in the WhiteHouse, Muslim ethnicities are getting a free pass! Quite an injustice I say!!!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Reality
With me reading ' blogs about everyday reality', Im hoping my resurfacing struggle with the D/s lifestyle will cease to exist! Perhaps it comes from me wanting someone else to take over the reigns - Ive never been married but have dated more than my 2 sisters and they are both married! Frankly in all candor, Im just too darn 'picky' and all those worthwhile men who would have made a wonderful 'soul mate' are either married and / or sprouting up daisies, lol and / or living in some far off exotic country!
Thanks to all those who have become a follower to my blog, A curious spectator, because Ive found some new and interesting ones to follow by clicking on what you read!
Thanks to all those who have become a follower to my blog, A curious spectator, because Ive found some new and interesting ones to follow by clicking on what you read!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Discourse
It is important to comprehend that it is the honesty & quality of discourse which is of essential value!
So I wonder what gives a chatterer who holds the bolt, the gall to suspend someone from chatting in a so designated Adult chatroom just because they do not like their comments???
The same thing can be said about blogging! Because I leave a comment on some blogs which frankly in all candor are so ridiculous. the owners have slandered me????
So therefore to all my enemies on blogland, you know whom you are, as you slide down the banister of life may the splinters always point in the wrong direction!!!! An old Irish saying!
So I wonder what gives a chatterer who holds the bolt, the gall to suspend someone from chatting in a so designated Adult chatroom just because they do not like their comments???
The same thing can be said about blogging! Because I leave a comment on some blogs which frankly in all candor are so ridiculous. the owners have slandered me????
So therefore to all my enemies on blogland, you know whom you are, as you slide down the banister of life may the splinters always point in the wrong direction!!!! An old Irish saying!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Bloggers & dirty linen
In reading a new friend's blog this afternoon, I came across a comment he made & immediately an idea for a post came to mind! Why is it that "bloggers" air their "dirty laundry" for all to see? Ive done just that and could it be, because we all are just a bit opinionated or is it that we just want to be outlandish or we just want pity! So I did an ixquick last evening, a new search engine that does not publish one's IP address like google does, and it suggested that "opinionated people" have "big mouths" - laughing out loud!
Feel free to comment all, even my enemies here on blogland!!
Feel free to comment all, even my enemies here on blogland!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Hot Temperatures in the Northeast have finally arrived
Hopefully, this week is the last of the "hot temps"! My ideal weather is cool evening / cool mornings with temperatures in the 70's with low humidity - something like SanDiego,California - what a wonderful place to visit! Now if you want contrast of temperatures drive to Monterey and or SanFrancisco California where thankgod I had my raincoat to keep me warm - because only one day did the temperature rise to 73!
Back in the 70's I took with me a girl friend from work & we visited a youngman I met in Williamsburg, VA summer of 1969! Tim worked during his college breaks as a "cooper" - lol, what a flirt he was all 6 ft inch 11 inches tall. Besides this Irishman i felt little - me being 6ft tall eyes of blue with the 100% Irish temper!
How different he had become - he was now a 2nd Lt training others at Fort Ord - now a defunct military base.
He was mean and he enjoyed when recruits were overcome with nauseous feelings after going through training of being able to withstand toxic chemicals! How had this fun loving Irishman with the twinkly eyes gone astray!
Ive enjoyed the summer we've had, though all the rain could have stayed away! Not once until yesterday, Sunday the 16th of August have I had on my air conditioning! And so it is becoming warm in the room where my computer is situated and time to close the wide open window!
Back in the 70's I took with me a girl friend from work & we visited a youngman I met in Williamsburg, VA summer of 1969! Tim worked during his college breaks as a "cooper" - lol, what a flirt he was all 6 ft inch 11 inches tall. Besides this Irishman i felt little - me being 6ft tall eyes of blue with the 100% Irish temper!
How different he had become - he was now a 2nd Lt training others at Fort Ord - now a defunct military base.
He was mean and he enjoyed when recruits were overcome with nauseous feelings after going through training of being able to withstand toxic chemicals! How had this fun loving Irishman with the twinkly eyes gone astray!
Ive enjoyed the summer we've had, though all the rain could have stayed away! Not once until yesterday, Sunday the 16th of August have I had on my air conditioning! And so it is becoming warm in the room where my computer is situated and time to close the wide open window!
Friday, August 14, 2009
Cult's & why are they allowed to flourish
As my blogger profile depicts, Im inquisitive which has come from working in the Customer Service field!
If one does not ask questions, they cannot do a good job plus too from asking alot of questions, one can have opinons! In my 8 posts commencing July 31st 2009, I talked about my curious interest in the Dominant / Submissive lifestyle that is why I entitled my blog the "A curious spectator"! Perhaps D/s can fulfill the purpose to increase the level of excitement in the boring world of "vanilla sex", but the "dark images" depicted in "Bondage / Discipline" to me does not have the potential to make my dreams come true nor does it fulfill the purpose to increase the level of my excitement nor would it ever build my self-esteem as suggested by 3 way over the hill submissives! In all reality, it is an "unethical alternative lifestyle"!
Because we live in a "free society", Bondage / Discipline is considered an alternative lifestyle aka Cult!
Children are subjected to this alternative lifestyle, if their parents embrace this lifestyle! Also words / ideas / pictures are more powerful than perhaps anyone suspects, and once deeply engraved in a child's mind, they are not easily eradicated! In all candor, I would certaintly not want anyone who teaches my child to be associated with this alternative lifestyle!
If one does not ask questions, they cannot do a good job plus too from asking alot of questions, one can have opinons! In my 8 posts commencing July 31st 2009, I talked about my curious interest in the Dominant / Submissive lifestyle that is why I entitled my blog the "A curious spectator"! Perhaps D/s can fulfill the purpose to increase the level of excitement in the boring world of "vanilla sex", but the "dark images" depicted in "Bondage / Discipline" to me does not have the potential to make my dreams come true nor does it fulfill the purpose to increase the level of my excitement nor would it ever build my self-esteem as suggested by 3 way over the hill submissives! In all reality, it is an "unethical alternative lifestyle"!
Because we live in a "free society", Bondage / Discipline is considered an alternative lifestyle aka Cult!
Children are subjected to this alternative lifestyle, if their parents embrace this lifestyle! Also words / ideas / pictures are more powerful than perhaps anyone suspects, and once deeply engraved in a child's mind, they are not easily eradicated! In all candor, I would certaintly not want anyone who teaches my child to be associated with this alternative lifestyle!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Closeted shrinks such as Selkie and Littleone
Laughing out Loud to the closeted shrinks known as Selkie / Littleone!
Although no comments are left on my blog, A curious spectator, my posts are still read!
I didn't comment to what Selkie wrote on the Journey 8/10/09 because frankly her statements were just too winded! Granted I know nothing of the dynamics of the lifestyle other than what Ive read not just online but in published books on the subject, but Im entitled to have an opinion. Last time I looked at our Constitution, America is a "free society"!
And for me being involved in 'SEX GAMES', hardly. Now you want details on that repugnant topic, visit the blog of Littleone's The Journey where she and her silly Master known as Sir live a 24/7 M/s lifestyle! She's nothing but a gray haired bbw hag who frankly is a MENTAL CASE!!
Although no comments are left on my blog, A curious spectator, my posts are still read!
I didn't comment to what Selkie wrote on the Journey 8/10/09 because frankly her statements were just too winded! Granted I know nothing of the dynamics of the lifestyle other than what Ive read not just online but in published books on the subject, but Im entitled to have an opinion. Last time I looked at our Constitution, America is a "free society"!
And for me being involved in 'SEX GAMES', hardly. Now you want details on that repugnant topic, visit the blog of Littleone's The Journey where she and her silly Master known as Sir live a 24/7 M/s lifestyle! She's nothing but a gray haired bbw hag who frankly is a MENTAL CASE!!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
My final post on the subject of BDSM
This morning around 9:45am after chatting with friends, I ventured into the world of blogging! I have 2 blogs saved on the subject of BDSM. A Kind Dom and Master's Viewpoint [Dennis Nagee - slave owner]. Ive read countless stories by dominants and submissives with lots of contradictions but The Journey is one blog that should be viewed as 'psychologically damaging'!
Littleone is the main character living the 24/7 bdsm lifestyle and so this morning described what happened the 2nd day of BDSM camp. I wonder what would happen if the tables were turned and her Master known as 'Sir' was beaten with such passion on a very sore ass that has a bump in it. Repeatedly he wanted her to drop her drawers and be subject to tortureous beatings because he wanted to try out new toys???? She repeatedly has discussed in her blog how she's 'masochistic' and they make beautiful music between them but in all reality isn't this just 'abusive behavior'!!!
Littleone is the main character living the 24/7 bdsm lifestyle and so this morning described what happened the 2nd day of BDSM camp. I wonder what would happen if the tables were turned and her Master known as 'Sir' was beaten with such passion on a very sore ass that has a bump in it. Repeatedly he wanted her to drop her drawers and be subject to tortureous beatings because he wanted to try out new toys???? She repeatedly has discussed in her blog how she's 'masochistic' and they make beautiful music between them but in all reality isn't this just 'abusive behavior'!!!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
An eight year inquisitive interest with D/s
For the past 8 years, Ive had an on again / off again "inquisitive interest" about the D/s lifestyle! When Ive read BDSMers blogs and viewed the pictures of their private parts
being contorted into many shapes via "pins/piercings", Ive come to the conclusion that they had to have been abused as children and/or as adults to have accepted this type of "safe, sane, consensual" punishment! And when they discuss the "dark side" can it be they are depressed due to the guilt of their aberrant sexual practices? Even us "vanilla people" get depressed but mainly due to the guilt, as a Christian, I lust married men! December 2007 I met such a person online and In January 2008 met him offline. I thought that by doing such I would for ever get over the attraction I felt for married men. Our "petting" with clothes on led to me giving him a "bj" with clothes off. When he didn't get what he wanted, he made up some story and left. Once I returned home, I went into a 3 month "guilt ridden" depression! LoL, Ive not learned from my experience because on Sunday, August 3, 2008 I allowed into my Instant Message chat a legally separated man but still in the eyes of God married! Am I attracted to him, yes still! And I know he would be the perfect person who could bring out my "submissive tendencies" as He's the most caring of all Dominants if I ever decided to lean the way of D/s!
being contorted into many shapes via "pins/piercings", Ive come to the conclusion that they had to have been abused as children and/or as adults to have accepted this type of "safe, sane, consensual" punishment! And when they discuss the "dark side" can it be they are depressed due to the guilt of their aberrant sexual practices? Even us "vanilla people" get depressed but mainly due to the guilt, as a Christian, I lust married men! December 2007 I met such a person online and In January 2008 met him offline. I thought that by doing such I would for ever get over the attraction I felt for married men. Our "petting" with clothes on led to me giving him a "bj" with clothes off. When he didn't get what he wanted, he made up some story and left. Once I returned home, I went into a 3 month "guilt ridden" depression! LoL, Ive not learned from my experience because on Sunday, August 3, 2008 I allowed into my Instant Message chat a legally separated man but still in the eyes of God married! Am I attracted to him, yes still! And I know he would be the perfect person who could bring out my "submissive tendencies" as He's the most caring of all Dominants if I ever decided to lean the way of D/s!
Saturday, August 8, 2009
BDSMers who like to flaunt their kink
My comment to Anonymous and all other BDSMers who feel they have the right to chastise me for voicing an opinion on what I dislike about BDSM, it's Abuse/Torture! Perhaps if your kind would keep their kink behind closed doors instead of shouting to the world with pictures - the carving of one's flesh in a figure 8 us Vanilla people / Psychologists would not judge you so harshly!!
Friday, August 7, 2009
Ive become famous - thanks morningstar
This morning on morningstar's blog alias littleone's the Journey she dedicated her August 7, 2009 post about BDSM versus Abuse to me! There was a comment that jumped out at me about self-esteem - that s/m build self-esteem - yeah right, NOT!
I have a chatfriend [Mentor] who not only has dabbled in Hedonism but also D/s and who like littleone has many degrees hanging up on his wall; he counsels abused men and women. I broached the subject of what she wrote about and this was his comment. Well, Christina you certaintly have a penchant for finding 'crazies' on the Internet! I told him about my blog and that I had been chastised by littleone for having an opinion on what I thought was Abuse - the carving of the figure 8 by a sadistic Master onto his sub's buttocks! His comment - well it sounds as though the multilatee and the multilator aren't working with a full deck of cards. Case closed!!!!!
I have a chatfriend [Mentor] who not only has dabbled in Hedonism but also D/s and who like littleone has many degrees hanging up on his wall; he counsels abused men and women. I broached the subject of what she wrote about and this was his comment. Well, Christina you certaintly have a penchant for finding 'crazies' on the Internet! I told him about my blog and that I had been chastised by littleone for having an opinion on what I thought was Abuse - the carving of the figure 8 by a sadistic Master onto his sub's buttocks! His comment - well it sounds as though the multilatee and the multilator aren't working with a full deck of cards. Case closed!!!!!
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Judgmental is one of my faults!
Nothing like being chatised for having an opinion! Im sorry if my remarks littleone upset you when I left a comment on your blog Sunday the 2nd of August 2009. Having the figure 8 carved by a knife is not my idea of what pleasure is all about! But as you commented on my blog of Monday 3rd of August 2009 you are a masochist and your Master a sadist! To each their own and Im not weak of heart. I was just agreeing with, what many of your submissive cohorts have said in their individual blogs about what is Abuse. I shall look forward to reading your blog to be posted Friday August 7 on the subject BDSM vs Abuse to see if what Ive read in many of the purchased Books such as The Loving Dominant / Erotic Surrender - The sensual joys of female submission agree with your interpretation!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Continuation on how I became the curious spectator
Ive also been reading the blogs of Dominants/Submissives such as: A Kind Dom & his followup Uncle Agony; In between black and white; daughter of the sea and oatmealgirl. There is much in what selkie laments that Ive felt about this very 'taboo lifestyle'. Then this morning 8/2/09 I read some of oatmealgirl's posts from July. The idea that a submissive would allow her sadistic Master flog her labia and/or bite it all in the feelings of pleasure is what I do not understand. The submissive is living, breathing at his 'pleasure' - where's the 'self-esteem' and/or 'dignity' of this 60 year old woman?. Im 60 years young too but Id never, ever allow any Man to treat me in the fashion her SadisticMaster does, even if we were just doing a D/s scene. How can one feel this treatment is personal growth? Too me this is Abuse! As Tristan, another Dominant whose blogs Ive read, and who commented to one of my comments to A Kind Dom's blog entitled "The insecurities of a Dom" said; I could be just a bit too Assertive to ever consider being called Submissive! I guess that is why from March of 2003 until January 2006 I walked away from even considering the D/s lifestyle. To be continued on 8/3/09.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
How I became the curious spectator
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Friday, July 31, 2009
My debut as a Blogger
It's 6:25pm on Friday and Im tongue-tied not knowing what to post.
Im new to this type of journaling though Ive jotted down my thoughts via an Ink pen within the confines of journal books [some very expensive] since May 17, 1998. Since 2-19-09 Ive been writing in the black Composition books that I used as a child, frankly because they are less expensive. Ive become very frugal since January 2006 perhaps I had an inkling of the Recession not yet upon us.
Once again Im late in starting dinner, so Im going to close and will resume blogging over the weekend!
Im new to this type of journaling though Ive jotted down my thoughts via an Ink pen within the confines of journal books [some very expensive] since May 17, 1998. Since 2-19-09 Ive been writing in the black Composition books that I used as a child, frankly because they are less expensive. Ive become very frugal since January 2006 perhaps I had an inkling of the Recession not yet upon us.
Once again Im late in starting dinner, so Im going to close and will resume blogging over the weekend!
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